( She breathes out, letting him shake against her; Jill wishes there was something she could do to right the world they've found themselves in, the one where he is once again asked to go on without Joshua. They all knew, the moment she saw them leave the hideaway, that they were going to their deaths. She remembers how that knowledge had propelled her forwards, after them, as if the sheer force of will of her want for their safety could draw them back. That he, of all of them, should live when he was the most willing to throw himself on the nearest sword if it meant saving them all--
Her free hand reaches up to cradle the back of his head, fingers threading the strands of hair in soft strokes; if he wishes to cry she will let him. They have nothing else that needs them so badly to rob him of this chance to grieve. )
It is, Clive. It is all anyone could have asked for. ( Jill turns her head to look at him once more, her eyes soft and understanding. There are still tears in the corner of them, running down her cheeks when she blinks; for Clive, for Joshua, for Dion. For all the loss that has rocked the Twins over the centuries -- he has ended it, yes, but that doesn't mean it never happened. ) There is no one who would say otherwise. But you don't have to believe that right now.
( Asking him to set aside his grief is something she would never do. Will never do, even if it takes him years to accept the truth. And she will be by his side for every one of those until he does, and for all their years after. It is not an exchange -- her unwaveringly loyalty for his return -- but an act of love. And she, who has spent so long feeling nothing, will do all she can to let them exist in a space where every emotion is given its due justice, for however long they need. )
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Her free hand reaches up to cradle the back of his head, fingers threading the strands of hair in soft strokes; if he wishes to cry she will let him. They have nothing else that needs them so badly to rob him of this chance to grieve. )
It is, Clive. It is all anyone could have asked for. ( Jill turns her head to look at him once more, her eyes soft and understanding. There are still tears in the corner of them, running down her cheeks when she blinks; for Clive, for Joshua, for Dion. For all the loss that has rocked the Twins over the centuries -- he has ended it, yes, but that doesn't mean it never happened. ) There is no one who would say otherwise. But you don't have to believe that right now.
( Asking him to set aside his grief is something she would never do. Will never do, even if it takes him years to accept the truth. And she will be by his side for every one of those until he does, and for all their years after. It is not an exchange -- her unwaveringly loyalty for his return -- but an act of love. And she, who has spent so long feeling nothing, will do all she can to let them exist in a space where every emotion is given its due justice, for however long they need. )
It's enough that you are here.